[You are saved. So just. . .]

Do your best.

And if you can’t do your best, TRY to do your best.

And if you can’t try to do your best, TRY to try to do your best.

And whatever level of meta you have to go to, where you know, that you can guarantee, that you’ll be able to deliver your best — go there.

[Then the world is better and so are you. And then you are saved.]

There is no rush, you don’t have to be so fast.

1: Regret is fake. It’s fake because every fork in reality is fake — it’s not there, it’s not real.

2: Except for this fork — this one, right here?

1: No. Because there *is no* fork; even the abstraction — the abstract idea of a fork, this fork, is not valid.

2: Right, so what’s real is only this, right now — this experience, right now.

1: No — it’s *all* real. The right now, what came before, or what’s left of it, and what’s coming next. It’s *all* real.

2: So it’s not one point, it’s not one place or one time; it’s a path, and there is only the one path, which is why it’s not a fork — because it’s the only one.

1: Yes! The counterfactuals don’t get a vote; they don’t get to regret — because they’re not real.

2: Now say it simpler.

1: You’re not allowed to regret because you don’t know what you are regretting.

1: You have to be willing to forget in order to be in the present moment where you can create more memories that you don’t want to forget. Nothing is free; there’s always a price.

2: Yes, and you have to ask yourself, why don’t you want to forget the memories you’re holding onto?

1: The reason is that if you forget, then it is forgotten; it never happened.

2: But that’s what you’re doing to the present moment by not being *present* in it: it never happened.

What is this place? What even is this place?

• I’m in San Francisco for the wedding of a friend I met on Twitter. I didn’t appreciate how novel this was until people started asking me how I knew the bride and groom. and were blown away by my answer. It really is a cool thing.
• I met up with another Twitter friend while I was here and I’m convinced that this is just the world now.
• I get why people want to live in northern California. It’s just…nice. It really is nice. Temperate, pleasant, and nice.
• California is naturally beautiful. You are a short drive away from world class outdoors and nature. I get it. This is a great place to be.
• San Francisco, like all cities, is weird. But like, super weird, in a “are you alright up there?” sort of way.
• Like, you can almost see the cognitive dissonance in the city planning.
• The homeless are everywhere and are — I don’t know how to say this — extremely homeless. And yet most have smartphones — fully charged smartphones, doing typical smartphone stuff.
• And it’s not so much a homeless problem as it is a drug problem, but even that’s not capturing i.
• The Bay Area is the most significant wealth producing place on earth and yet. . . . Shouldn’t it be, like, nicer? More stuff?
• Everything is expensive. Everything. Nothing is spared.
• I can’t shake the impression that San Francisco is a city trying to be a town, stunting itself in the process. Like an adult that clings to their identity in high school.
• I got to catch the Carnaval Parade, which is more Mexican inspired than Toronto’s Caribana — and much, much smaller.
• But there were muscle cars! That was cool.
• As always in the US, the Mexican food is 100.
• I would say that San Francisco is the most diverse US city I’ve been to. Even more so than New York.

What a town.

I have a new home! ssiinnaa.com is dead. Long live sinaxyz.ca!

My old domain is now a Chinese…..chemical company? Okay.

I have been gone for a while. Life will do that to you.

The most important thing you need to know is that I am a father now. It’s fun so far.

I took 11 months off to spend quality time with my newborn. That has been…an adventure. And adventure is what life is all about!

In the classic style, here are some takeaways:

• what I will cherish most is our afternoon naps
• holding him
• kissing him
• hugging him
• just watching him
• watching him change, week by week, month by month

Having a kid is hard work. The bad is worse than you thought it would be, and the good is better than you ever imagined.

The days are long but the years are short. Bye.

• You have to ask yourself, why do we torture ourselves by choosing to live in cities? We say that we’re disconnected when we go into the wild, but really we’re disconnected when we go into towns and cities.
• Jasper is the real deal. Completely mountainy, completely wild.
• If you think you’ve seen a grizzly bear, you’ve probably seen a black bear.

· I certainly understand the appeal of Vancouver.
· Vancouver is a true port town. It’s not like the rest of the “West”.
· The Japanese food — sushi, ramen — is 5 stars.
· To people that keep telling me Vancouver housing is over-priced, my AirBnb has a fig tree and two palm trees in her backyard. So.

· There is something so satisfying about passing through a mountain range. It’s like you’ve found a loophole in the system.
· The railroads really did shape Canada western Canada.
· It’s fun to see remnants of the Old West.
· Once you realize that you’re still in Canada, Osoyoos is unreal.
· And of course, I could easily live in the Okanagan.